Blah...that's how I have been feeling lately. Very much withdrawn from men the last couple of weeks. I did end up rescheduling the date from last Thursday with Shane. I did not have to do it though, he did! He had to go out of town for work so we are going out this next week. I am not sure if I will be into him.
Victor told me AGAIN the he would call last Wednesday and Thursday...no call from him whatsoever. I never asked him to call me. This was him instant messaging me to tell me that he would call. I am sooooo turned off by him right now. I feel like sending him a message telling him to never contact me again.
O'Brady has been instant messaging me a lot lately. I just don't see myself with him long term. He is so good looking but so "it's all about me". The other mark against him is that he has been to prison. I just don't think I could be with someone that has a rough past again. Don't want to take the chance. He is a changed person but as Dr. Phil says, "The best predictor of future behavior is past behavior". I think we will be friends. Since he is so hot, he would be good for some photos with me to put up on Myspace.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
What a Man Does, Not What He Says
Victor contacted me by instant message today. He said that he missed me and would call later. HE NEVER DID! Once again, my guy friend is right. DO NOT LISTEN TO WHAT A GUY SAYS, WATCH WHAT HE DOES. Victor has said that he would call a few times already and has not followed through. This makes me think that he is not into it as much as he says he is. What a turnoff. I really like people who will do what they say they will.
Shane also contacted me about our possible dinner plans this week. We made plans for Thursday but honestly, I feel like canceling. I am not real enthusiastic about him because of our phone calls. I want to get off the phone as quick as I can. His laugh is fake and it seems like he tries too hard. I also found out that he shares a home with 3 college students. Why am I so turned off by this? It seems so immature.
O'Brady sent me an instant message yesterday. He is really hot physically but he is so much into himself. He finally started asking questions about me. I don't like the fact that he is too new agey. I almost want to vomit when he mentions how all these women are after him. He talks about it so much. I believe it because he is hot but wow, he is so insecure. This guy may just be someone cute to go out with for a night and kiss. I don't see myself with him long term, especially because of his past. That is really hard for me to overlook.
Shane also contacted me about our possible dinner plans this week. We made plans for Thursday but honestly, I feel like canceling. I am not real enthusiastic about him because of our phone calls. I want to get off the phone as quick as I can. His laugh is fake and it seems like he tries too hard. I also found out that he shares a home with 3 college students. Why am I so turned off by this? It seems so immature.
O'Brady sent me an instant message yesterday. He is really hot physically but he is so much into himself. He finally started asking questions about me. I don't like the fact that he is too new agey. I almost want to vomit when he mentions how all these women are after him. He talks about it so much. I believe it because he is hot but wow, he is so insecure. This guy may just be someone cute to go out with for a night and kiss. I don't see myself with him long term, especially because of his past. That is really hard for me to overlook.
Monday, February 18, 2008
Indifferent
Wow. I am amazed at my overall attitude of indifference lately. Men will call or text message me and I have no desire to get back with them right away which is so NOT LIKE ME. Victor called me Friday and left a message and it is now Monday and I have yet to call him back. Today he sent me an instant message that said he missed me and to contact him right away. He told me he would call tonight and still has not. I can't stand people that do not do what they say they will. He has done this to me 3 times now.
Shane sent me a text message around 7am this morning. I was lying in bed trying to get the last 3 minutes of sleep before I had to crawl out of my coma. My phone gave me that sound that I love, the sound of a text message! You know the sound I am talking about. Don't you just hate it when you look at your message hoping it is someone else and then feel disappointed when it is not? I looked at my message and he said he wanted me to call him around lunch time. I liked the fact that he texted me this morning BUT THEN, he called me right away within 1 hour of sending the message. What a turnoff!!! BACK OFF DUDE! SLOW DOWN! I called him back 1 hour later and he asked me out for either Friday or Saturday. I said it was not a good time and mentioned having dinner during the week. I felt a bit uncomfortable but I will still give it a shot.
My goodness...Where am I getting this attitude from?
Shane sent me a text message around 7am this morning. I was lying in bed trying to get the last 3 minutes of sleep before I had to crawl out of my coma. My phone gave me that sound that I love, the sound of a text message! You know the sound I am talking about. Don't you just hate it when you look at your message hoping it is someone else and then feel disappointed when it is not? I looked at my message and he said he wanted me to call him around lunch time. I liked the fact that he texted me this morning BUT THEN, he called me right away within 1 hour of sending the message. What a turnoff!!! BACK OFF DUDE! SLOW DOWN! I called him back 1 hour later and he asked me out for either Friday or Saturday. I said it was not a good time and mentioned having dinner during the week. I felt a bit uncomfortable but I will still give it a shot.
My goodness...Where am I getting this attitude from?
Friday, February 15, 2008
Valentine's Schmallentine's
I actually had a great Valentine's Day. I don't recall many blissful, romantic, days with a valentine. My whole life, I have received maybe 1 or 2 gifts in the past from a love interest. Well today, I received 3 Happy Valentine's Day text messages from 3 different men. For some reason, I felt withdrawn from their thoughtfulness. It may be because of all the anger I have had towards men all week.
I ended up spending the evening with my daughter. We got our nails done together. What fun!
I ended up spending the evening with my daughter. We got our nails done together. What fun!
Friday, January 25, 2008
Psycho Texting Max
Today I was an idiot. I felt real sad because I had to terminate my dating relationship with
Tonight, I pushed forward and began texting Max to meet me later for a drink. I sent way too many text messages and now I feel like crap. I psycho texted him! About the only solution at this point is to pull way back. I looked vulnerable and needy/clingy. What a ding dong! I hope he contacts me again. Why do I do this to myself? AAAHHHHH! Remind me again...DO NOT CONTACT A MAN!!!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Uh oh
What has gotten into me?
Last night I met Max. A 30 something cutie, analyst. I was real nervous before meeting him. Probably more nervous this time than others. Maybe it was because we spoke so much on the phone. I was attracted to him before I met him. Great personality. When I got to the restaurant LATE, he was outside waiting for me. Now I did call to tell him I was running late. He gave me a long warm hug. We went to the bar and I ordered a glass of wine. I probably appeared picky because I asked them to clean my glass, twice. It felt so ucky, like baked on food. We sat down to have our meal and had great conversation. He was real flirty and touchy feely with me. I liked that coming from him. He was very cute in the face. A little bigger than what I had hoped but he was still cute. I ended up with this creamy chicken dish which was delicious. Let's just say that my chicken was sexually harassed. I had a couple of glasses of some really good wine so I had a real good buzz.
We left the restaurant and then he walked me to my car. We then decided that we were going back to his place. Whoa. STOP. Did I just say that? Yes, on the first date I went back to his place! We stopped to pick up a bottle of wine. Upon entering his home, I noticed that it was very clean for a guy. His place was cute and clean. No real decorating ability but it worked. His cat greeted me at my feet and wanted me to pick it up. I did pick him up and he did not want me to put him down! I loved the cat. Max poured me some wine and we sat on the couch and watched the "beginning" of a movie. He then started rubbing my arms and hands and then told me to rub his arms and hands. Okay, I love to give a massage but damn, do you have to tell me when to do you? What is this tit for tat? Can you just give without expecting to receive? I went ahead and massaged his arms and hands. Then he kissed me. He was a good kisser. We screwed around a little on the couch...you know, grinding, touching, kissing. He went for the crotch on the outside and I did not stop him. I did do the O and he was cool about it. He told me to let go. When i did, it was more intense. He then tells me to go upstairs with him and "cuddle". Yeah right.
Now for the confession...I did go to his bed, I did take off my shirt, I did see and play with his thing...all on the FIRST date. What the hell was I thinking? Let's be honest here, I knew at the restaurant that I wanted to go back to his place and make out. I was in the mood for it. I have been so aroused lately. Gosh, being in my thirties is not easy. My sex drive is way high.
He ended up walked me to my car. He kissed me, twice. He texted me when I got home and sent me a sweet email. All I kept thinking was how much I looked like an easy, sleezy, slut. I hope he calls again.
Last night I met Max. A 30 something cutie, analyst. I was real nervous before meeting him. Probably more nervous this time than others. Maybe it was because we spoke so much on the phone. I was attracted to him before I met him. Great personality. When I got to the restaurant LATE, he was outside waiting for me. Now I did call to tell him I was running late. He gave me a long warm hug. We went to the bar and I ordered a glass of wine. I probably appeared picky because I asked them to clean my glass, twice. It felt so ucky, like baked on food. We sat down to have our meal and had great conversation. He was real flirty and touchy feely with me. I liked that coming from him. He was very cute in the face. A little bigger than what I had hoped but he was still cute. I ended up with this creamy chicken dish which was delicious. Let's just say that my chicken was sexually harassed. I had a couple of glasses of some really good wine so I had a real good buzz.
We left the restaurant and then he walked me to my car. We then decided that we were going back to his place. Whoa. STOP. Did I just say that? Yes, on the first date I went back to his place! We stopped to pick up a bottle of wine. Upon entering his home, I noticed that it was very clean for a guy. His place was cute and clean. No real decorating ability but it worked. His cat greeted me at my feet and wanted me to pick it up. I did pick him up and he did not want me to put him down! I loved the cat. Max poured me some wine and we sat on the couch and watched the "beginning" of a movie. He then started rubbing my arms and hands and then told me to rub his arms and hands. Okay, I love to give a massage but damn, do you have to tell me when to do you? What is this tit for tat? Can you just give without expecting to receive? I went ahead and massaged his arms and hands. Then he kissed me. He was a good kisser. We screwed around a little on the couch...you know, grinding, touching, kissing. He went for the crotch on the outside and I did not stop him. I did do the O and he was cool about it. He told me to let go. When i did, it was more intense. He then tells me to go upstairs with him and "cuddle". Yeah right.
Now for the confession...I did go to his bed, I did take off my shirt, I did see and play with his thing...all on the FIRST date. What the hell was I thinking? Let's be honest here, I knew at the restaurant that I wanted to go back to his place and make out. I was in the mood for it. I have been so aroused lately. Gosh, being in my thirties is not easy. My sex drive is way high.
He ended up walked me to my car. He kissed me, twice. He texted me when I got home and sent me a sweet email. All I kept thinking was how much I looked like an easy, sleezy, slut. I hope he calls again.
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